A Truth That Set Me Free from Islam
11 Aug, 2008
From Faithfreedom.org (FFI)
Dear Ali Sina (editor, FFI),
One of my favorite quotes ever is "truth shall set you free" and you are the one that awakened me a while ago although I never sent you a thank you letter. So I guess I owe a HUGE thank you because you are one of the rare people that helped me confirm that the world I lived in was a big fat lie and nobody even dared to wonder "what if all this is wrong."
I'm young, a 16 year old boy and for 15 years I've been raised as a
Muslim. I followed my religions beliefs as if I had no other choice.
If I was born a Muslim that was the way I ought to spend my life
never asking too much questions because questions would lead me
astray. I prayed a lot and was a really devoted Muslim. I even read
Qur'an as the word of God. Everyone in my country was doing so, why
my 15th birthday I wanted to pray 5 times a day and devote my self
to Allah. This may sound irrelevant but my birthday wish was "to
make all the right decisions”. It really came true. I never thought
my life would change in this way. Exactly one week later I had a
beautiful day, and for some reason I started collecting small rocks
from my favorite places , listening to music and on the eve of the
same day I for some unknown reason I goggled "spells", that's
probably because I got bored and after such a beautiful day, the
evening seemed dull.
That word changed my life forever, but it wasn't just the word, but
Life had prepared me to react differently to the information I had
just found. As a child, I always used to watch Charmed, a TV-show
about magic, spells, potions, demons, long story short it was a
fairy-tale life but I always used to see myself as a warlock or a
witch having wonderful powers and stuff but even as a child I knew
that it was just my over active imagination after all Allah is One
and Our life purpose was to Pray and bla bla bla. You get the point.
The search in Google about the word "spells" had a lot of results to
my surprise so because I had nothing to do I decided to click over
them and see what crap there is, but what I found out was more
incredible than I ever imagined. It wasn't the fairytale world of
Charmed, that's for sure but it was a whole different world. In this
website it was written that witchcraft was not the work of Devil, 'cuz
devil never existed anyway, but rather was a chant to a Loving God
to grant a desire. It spoke about Astral world as a chance to do the
things we always dreamed, because it was actually the place we went
when we slept. It spoke about love, a topic Islam never touched, as
the source of all, it spoke about Karma which at the time was an
unfamiliar concept to me, it spoke about humanity's evolution, a
topic I had always fought against, it spoke that the reason why
spells came true was because there was a field, universe itself that
granted our grandest desire.
Long story short it introduced a WHOLE NEW WORLD
for me. I didn't immediately accept it. It was all Satan's work and
this was the way for him to lead my astray from my Islamic Path. It
was just too good to be true and it was the opposite of everything
my family, my mosque, my friends and teachers had taught me, but I
couldn't help wondering What if, What if, everything I took for
granted was not right? What if, I've been laid all my life? And so
on so I started doubting my religion, Allah and Quran.
guess I started to ask questions, something Allah really didn't want
me to do, because I had to believe the Unknown, and Qur'an had all
the answers anyway. But something inside of me was restless .I was
introduced to a world of choice where I could research about all the
religions and the one that was the rightest to me was the one I'd
choose. For the first time in my life I had the option of having a
choice, not a religion which was forced from family and even
didn't leave Islam immediately because it would destroy my comfort
zone. After all I had been a devoted Muslim for a long while and
fear of hell always wins. Fear. That's how Islam and other organized
religion have survived. So I decided to do research about Islam and
many of the results were "Allah is one - fear him and he will grant
you hereafter (Heaven)". After all what I always wanted to do after
I reached adulthood was to become a shehid - to die in the name of
Allah, probably taking many innocent people with me. I wanted that
because that's what Friday mosque speech told us. It was a fool-
proof plan. We would die in the name of God and we could choose 70
people to take with us in heaven. I even was making the list in my
mind. Who should I pick?
Thinking about it now, I was so naive, incredibly naive, and that was so because I had a lack of information. I saw the world as a test ground where I had to deny myself pleasure, give money to the church, pray 5 times a day in Arabic (thing we had memorized and we didn't even know their meaning). If it is written in the Quran, it had to be so. Also I had to read Quran, most of which was filled with hadith, something I never understood. Why does God's word need texts from other people? Anyway, I also had to fast Ramadan and so on so I could have a chance to be on Allah's good list.
I researched more and more and the results I found were incredibly
shocking. They were totally blasphemy, or so I thought and among
those results were information of Quran contradictions and error. I
WAS SHOCKED. How could a religion with so many believers have errors
and contradictions??? Something was wrong. I had my doubts but never
thought that the truth was so hurtful but it wasn't the truth that
hurt, it was the lies that I had lived my life doing and believing.
That's where you got in.
I found you website, not easily I might add. It was so shocking. You
totally opened my eyes about the reality that I considered true. You
actually had the courage to give answers that everybody avoided. You
helped me more than you could ever imagine. You gave me the truth. A
truth I didn't accept that easily was a truth that was so
undeniable. A truth that set me free.
now I was free but so confused. Everything I'd ever know was
crushed. I didn't know what to do. Everyone around me was Muslim. No
one would understand and even though I was so incredibly lost I felt
happy because I knew I had broken away from a life full of hate.
The fact that I had become familiar with witchcraft helped me a lot
because it was a religion which said "we are not the only way, we
are merely one.” That saying just warmed my heart because my life
wasn't filled with fear anymore. I had love in my heart, something I
wasn't learned through Islam.
was introduced to a life where love dominated, peace was the primal
goal, and the only rule/law was DO NO HARM. What
more could I want. I had spells which would help my life improve. I
had it all but still I had many questions. Why did my spells came
true, what was the field, what was really god, why is the world as
it is, what was life's purpose, who we are, where do we come from.
These were questions Witchcraft failed to answer.
I decided to leave Witchcraft for a while so I could seek the truth.
For some reason I became interested in Hinduism. It was really
interesting and the concept of karma and reincarnation really got my
attention. So I got into it and read a lot of its literature. As
interesting as it was I had to move one and learn about other
religions also. So I became acquainted with Christianity. It was a
joke. It was full of fear and couldn't be a Christian for more than
a week. So then I became interested with Buddhism. I loved it, the
meditation, Buddha, Enlightenment. I loved the idea of not wanting
anything, because I already had it all. For many reasons that didn't
fulfill me. So I found Theosophy and till now, it's the only
rational religion, if it even was one. It gave me so many answers,
intellectual ones but the reason d'etre I got apart from it
was the over abstractness. I didn't quite understand Life.
So I decided to follow a life living the combo of all religions. Well at least till I found something else. The combo was a pile of ideas that made all religions great. I was happy but I really wanted to find the truth, the ultimate one. That wasn't hard. All I had to do was look for it, something other people don't do. I read the book "The Celestine Prophecy”. A beautiful book. The first one I read where the concept of God was as a source of energy, not a white bearded man standing in the sky judging people and acting through miracles and bla bla bla, an image I'd left when I left Islam. This book was about awakening of humanity, seeing the world through different eyes, talked about the connectedness with everyone.
It was just the first book with many to follow. I read probably all Deepak Chopras books, where he explained life, universe, good as a single principle, life after death, answering millions of my questions, Echart Tolle who explained Ego and consciousness. Then came Wayne Dyer teaching me to be a Non Limit Person. Also read "Peaceful Warrior" by Dan Millman a book that changes lives.
The biggest shock of all was the Law of Attraction.
That seemed the bottom. The secret of Life was revealed and all I
ever wanted I could have. It may have seemed suspicious but every
time I'd try it, it would work. Somehow the universe was taking care
of me. I read "the teachings of Abraham," not the prophet but an
extraterrestrial being. What ??? Another Shock. So there is life on
other planets. That just was the bottom. I searched for
Extraterrestrials, not the UFO attack crap, but other being in other
dimensions, spiritual beings, beings of love, beings that have
already evolved in the stages we are. Wow! Shocking! "The
pleadings, the ashtar command.” I wasn't sure I could take
it. This just raised more questions. Why wasn't I aware that there
was life on other planet? Who were they? What did they want? Where
did they come from? And so on.
I managed to answer all those questions by time. They were usually being who have lived on earth and have evolved going on higher realities, and they wanted to help us because the time we are living is a time of shift, change. Not the Armageddon, not Apocalypse, not the end of the world, but a new beginning, a new start, the Age of Aquarius. Wasn’t that something? The Mayan prophecy of 2012.I guess I was just amazed. I began watching incredible documentaries such as "What the bleep do we know "Spiritual Reality" "Earthlings" "The 11th Hour" all a great work of people who wanted to evolve the world.
The greatest shock of all was "Conversations with God" by Donald Neal Walsch a man who really talked with God, a unconditionally loving God, A God you can fall in love with, a God who gave all the answers, a God that we can contact every second , we could talk to God on our own. We didn't need a middle man. God was always there. And now he wanted to tell us the secrets of life. A God you can laugh with, a God that Is Everything. No wonder his name is I Am That, I Am because she is every that there is. He is all there is .Now I have such a beautiful relationship with God.
I was living peacefully but everywhere I looked I saw violence, people that had stopped the connection to God and were hanging on to some Allah, Jesus or whatever. People were suffering and I couldn't stop wondering why? Why was Life so Hard for others? Why didn't people seek the truth as I did and find out the joy of life? What was stopping people? Who was the person behind the curtain that was letting this happen? It certainly wasn't God who was responsible for this. God has granted us free will and would never take that away. It was we, humans that had created this reality.
I realize that I'm 16 but was does that mean. That just shows that if a person is devoted to find answers, no matter what his or her age is, can find them. The truth Is right in front of our eyes. We just need to look closely.
know now that I have a Grand part in the changes to come and I
intent to read books, help people, and reach the Utopia we always
I am forever grateful for helping me realize how shallow Islam was, without you I wouldn't have gone through this journey of finding the truth. You were the one that helped me realize I have a bigger life purpose or even that I have one. I haven't reached The Ultimate Truth but I am quite close.
I'd like to end this letter with my favorite quote ever:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
I hope I haven't
bored you. I hope you edit this story of mine in your website so it
can inspire others to go and seek their part of the truth. We all
have a purpose. It’s like Gandhi said: "Be the change you want to
see in the world”.
Please, please contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org